It doesn’t take a lot of strength to hang on. It takes a lot of strength to let go.
J. C. Watts
I couldn’t wait until next week to share a praise report like this. So, it’s a two post kind of day.
I have been praying the same prayer for awhile now. “God please just snatch me up by the scruff of my lil neck and place me in your will by any means; except I ask that you please don’t take my boys, Carli or the GrandCubs from me to do this.”
He has answered my prayer today, January 19, 2018. I will forever remember this date. And it’s also a special little girl’s birthday today (her first) so every year she turns a year older, I will know the years I’ve walked this path I am beginning today.
He’s made it to where I can give him complete control of my life and I am completely in His will. It has been a hard day. I thanked God as soon as the event happened because I recognized it for what it was. And later, the absolute worst version of me found her way to the surface for several hours. I’ve mellowed now. I think I’m exhausted mostly, but I have a peace that I cannot quite put my finger on. I know that it is because it is His peace. I’m not going to lie, I was terrified almost every time that I prayed the above prayer. But I knew I’d never get there without something extreme happening. When the door opened, I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that it was God. I hesitated just because of how sure I was. I knew what was to come as soon as I crossed the threshold. I still am not sure what compelled me, physically moved me, to walk through this door He opened.
He loves me so, this I know and have always known. But today I feel His love through this trial in a way I’ve never experienced. I have so much peace that it barely feels like a trial. I am definitely not reacting to part of my world getting rocked like I normally would (which would be sheer panic).
If there’s something holding you back from being where you are supposed to be with God, don’t be afraid to let him place you there Himself. I don’t know how everything is going to be okay. I haven’t the slightest clue. I haven’t even attempted to figure it out. I’m giving it to Him tonight. I’m asking that he sort it all out according to His will. I am just going to get up in the morning, go to church, worship God, be fed the word by Pastor Chris and have my day (in His will).
It feels super amazing, guys! Finally, first time to fully trust God. Crazy, huh! And did I mention, AMAZING!
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
1 Thessalonians 5:18
Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
Just Shae It 